deep inside

Tah la. I don’t know where to start. But I still wanna write it down. I don’t wanna keep it. Do you ever feel like a small matter can burst ur tears out? Even though its not worth to cry for but still u wanna cry. Actually its just a point to cry ur heart out loud. Yeah. It happened to me. I’ve been holding a lot of shits lately n I hate it all. It just I don’t know how to take it out of me. So…something happened, actually its not really a big deal. But that’s the point for me to….cry. haih.. I hate to cry. But I cant help myself…lama dah simpan. No one knows. Bcoz….no one will understand..yeah. maybe theres a lot of ppl around me that care bout me. But in the end…im all alone. Sebab memang tak ada sapa akan paham. Tu je. A very simple concept. Tidak ada siapa akan faham. Im sorry for being a bit emotional here. Dah la..crapping crapping crap crap. Its going no where pon……….

nurliyanazulkifli

drama drama drama

Halah. ni la akibat tido awal. Skali da bangun takleh tido dah. Its kinda bored rite now. Meow tuh da tdo da. Not much to do so rasa cam nak tulis blog la. Just now I went to central plaza. Tengok ridz n alep kacau dodol. Cam best gile. Pastu pinjam moto ridz jalan2 kat mmu. Thanks aload ridz. Then balik bilik n here I am now. Writing a dumbass blog.

Apa yg saya buat for the past few days:

25th March

Saya,nue,elyn,syam,helmi,alep,naqi,boy ada shooting dekat taman tasik perdana and ktm station. It was loads of fun. Seriously. Mmg la tiring gila beng tapi mmg enjoy sgt. Rasa dah lama tak enjoy mcm tuh. my first scene kene act ngn alep as a couple. Hahahah. Gila klaka ok. Siap jatuh2 lagi. But its ok bcoz alep mmg pro dlm acting nie. He teached me a lots. Thanks alep. then ade scene ngn elyn n syam sme skali. We did our best la jugak hari tu. Walaupon gila exhausted. I missed that moment. sme org nye outfit arituh mmg best gila. except for me la. I have to wear a black cardigan which is a bit ‘besar’ n I looked darn fat in that outfit. Tengok gambar pon nampak gila gemuk. Haish. Pity me. Tp syam was the bomb la. Hey syam..u shud wear that suit la for fcm nite. Heheheh. Overall sme org mmg chantek2 n hensem2 ok. After that we went back to cyber. Im stuck outside my room sbb tade kunci so call ihsan soh dtg amek, lgpon I feel like going back to ampang. Lama tak balik n I miss my mommy. Dan jugak my ihsan bebeh. Sedih gila sbb dapat spend only 2 hours with ihsan. Tu pon rasanye tak sampai 2 hours kot. After more than a month tak jmpe. Demm. I miss him so much. Banyak je bende nak citer but 2 hours?? Its not enough. I felt asleep in his arms n the next thing I realized…dah pagi..serious sedih sgt. not much to do that day…pastu balik cyber.

So….im off to bed..saya sgt rindu ihsan. Pls babe balik la. N naqi dan adam. Pls saya happy walaupon say mok. Agegeggeeg . korg bunchit ok. Dan…. Saya rasa kalau buat benda dgn hati yg ikhlas…semuanya possible. Cuma..kena ikhlas. Fikirlah.

i love them all

i love <3:

my family:
mama . ajugile . baba . alia . faris . elina . n my lil bro .

my soulmate:
ihsan harith harman .

my girlfriends:
elinna . syaifanur . syimir . haida . alya . nabilah . qairul faiz . mia n the rest (too many to mention :D)

my boyfriends:
helmi . syam . (too many to mention)

mgsian . ampang homeboys n homegals .

this is a happy blog . finally . agegegegege . :D

nurliyanazulkifli

Goodbye to all the past

After all. I don’t see any reason why I should be holding myself back from moving on. I think this is the time for a wake up call. I gotta move on.

Dear my past life,

Thank you for everything. U make me the person I am now. I used to be an angry child. But I’ve learned from it. I think it’s enough for me to keep u inside me for any longer. I gotta let it go. Im not regretting anything but I must say I hate it all. I hate what you’ve done to me. But still…thank you. Bye bye past. Hello future.

No love,

nurliyanazulkifli

p/s : its general. if any of u ppl dont like it. feel free to close the browser n be gone. u r not welcome here. this is my blog anyway.

a stranger

thank you. for such an encouraging comment. thank you stranger.

nurliyanazulkifli

.stranger in my life.

Hey stranger. can we talk?
I wish…
That’s all I can do..
Wishing..
And keep wishing..
Wish for a stranger..
To comfort me..


I don’t know where I stand..
I don’t know who to trust..
I don’t know which one is the truth..
Which one is the lie..
I don’t know why I cry..
I don’t know why I am mad..
I don’t know where to go..
I don’t know where I belong..


Hey stranger. Can I cry on your shoulder?


nurliyanazulkifli

sick society

I feel sick. Yeah . that’s the word . SICK . sick with myself . sick with people . sick with everything . Everything seems unreal. Fake. Im living in a world full of bullshitness. Posers. Liars .hypocrite. “oh I care bout u elle” . and at the same time “I hated elle so much . shes a bitch” . its totally a joke. I don’t give a shit bout that. I believe in karma. Dgn setiap perbuatan ada pembalasan. Mereka tidak tahu. They never see underneath dgn setiap apa yang saya kena deal. Tapi mereka kata saya lah punca . saya lah racun . saya lah rosak . saya lah jahat . saya lah salah. Mereka ada mata yg boleh melihat. Tetapi mata mereka buta kerana hanya boleh melihat pada kulit. Bukan pada hati. I’ve tried my best. To attend everyone. To entertain everyone. Tp saya bukan robot. Saya ada hati. Saya rasa. Saya manusia biasa. Saya tak mampu. Saya tak sempurna. people. u r free to hate me for who i am. silakan. i dont care less.

saya masih ada mereka.

yang sayang saya.

bergembiralah manusia2 fake.

kamu menang.

saya tak kesah.

buat pertama kali dlm hidup saya.

saya tidak memaafkan.

nurliyanazulkifli

result

result.result.result.resuxx

occay . result mmg mcm babi . i was like terkejut-nak-mampos bcoz i have to resit for my freakin' english paper . mmg takleh nak get over mnde tu sampai sekarang . fuck the whole world .

lagi sakit hati bile ihsan dapat cgpa die 3.4 . mama bangga la kat ihsan tu . same goes as my sister . fine korg . sape anak n adek korg skrg nih ? beh . i tak marah . cuma . dengki . eheheh . nways . congrats sayang . kamu mmg pandai dan takleh nak dinafikan . wutever pon . saya bangga dgn kamu beh . tapi . kalo next sem i lg bagus dr u . u kne stripdance tgh highway . occay ? its a deal .

haih . elyn . syam . helmi . hariz . syimir . kdo dan sme2 la . korg mesti lagi bagus kan result . congrats .