cold soul

deep inside

2006-03-28T05:10:00.000-08:00

Tah la. I don’t know where to start. But I still wanna write it down. I don’t wanna keep it. Do you ever feel like a small matter can burst ur tears out? Even though its not worth to cry for but still u wanna cry. Actually its just a point to cry ur heart out loud. Yeah. It happened to me. I’ve been holding a lot of shits lately n I hate it all. It just I don’t know how to take it out of me. So…something happened, actually its not really a big deal. But that’s the point for me to….cry. haih.. I hate to cry. But I cant help myself…lama dah simpan. No one knows. Bcoz….no one will understand..yeah. maybe theres a lot of ppl around me that care bout me. But in the end…im all alone. Sebab memang tak ada sapa akan paham. Tu je. A very simple concept. Tidak ada siapa akan faham. Im sorry for being a bit emotional here. Dah la..crapping crapping crap crap. Its going no where pon……….

nurliyanazulkifli

drama drama drama

2006-03-27T13:44:00.000-08:00

Halah. ni la akibat tido awal. Skali da bangun takleh tido dah. Its kinda bored rite now. Meow tuh da tdo da. Not much to do so rasa cam nak tulis blog la. Just now I went to central plaza. Tengok ridz n alep kacau dodol. Cam best gile. Pastu pinjam moto ridz jalan2 kat mmu. Thanks aload ridz. Then balik bilik n here I am now. Writing a dumbass blog.

Apa yg saya buat for the past few days:

25th March

Saya,nue,elyn,syam,helmi,alep,naqi,boy ada shooting dekat taman tasik perdana and ktm station. It was loads of fun. Seriously. Mmg la tiring gila beng tapi mmg enjoy sgt. Rasa dah lama tak enjoy mcm tuh. my first scene kene act ngn alep as a couple. Hahahah. Gila klaka ok. Siap jatuh2 lagi. But its ok bcoz alep mmg pro dlm acting nie. He teached me a lots. Thanks alep. then ade scene ngn elyn n syam sme skali. We did our best la jugak hari tu. Walaupon gila exhausted. I missed that moment. sme org nye outfit arituh mmg best gila. except for me la. I have to wear a black cardigan which is a bit ‘besar’ n I looked darn fat in that outfit. Tengok gambar pon nampak gila gemuk. Haish. Pity me. Tp syam was the bomb la. Hey syam..u shud wear that suit la for fcm nite. Heheheh. Overall sme org mmg chantek2 n hensem2 ok. After that we went back to cyber. Im stuck outside my room sbb tade kunci so call ihsan soh dtg amek, lgpon I feel like going back to ampang. Lama tak balik n I miss my mommy. Dan jugak my ihsan bebeh. Sedih gila sbb dapat spend only 2 hours with ihsan. Tu pon rasanye tak sampai 2 hours kot. After more than a month tak jmpe. Demm. I miss him so much. Banyak je bende nak citer but 2 hours?? Its not enough. I felt asleep in his arms n the next thing I realized…dah pagi..serious sedih sgt. not much to do that day…pastu balik cyber.

So….im off to bed..saya sgt rindu ihsan. Pls babe balik la. N naqi dan adam. Pls saya happy walaupon say mok. Agegeggeeg . korg bunchit ok. Dan…. Saya rasa kalau buat benda dgn hati yg ikhlas…semuanya possible. Cuma..kena ikhlas. Fikirlah.

i love them all

2006-03-23T13:38:00.000-08:00

i love <3:

my family:
mama . ajugile . baba . alia . faris . elina . n my lil bro .

my soulmate:
ihsan harith harman .

my girlfriends:
elinna . syaifanur . syimir . haida . alya . nabilah . qairul faiz . mia n the rest (too many to mention :D)

my boyfriends:
helmi . syam . (too many to mention)

mgsian . ampang homeboys n homegals .

this is a happy blog . finally . agegegegege . :D

nurliyanazulkifli

Goodbye to all the past

2006-03-23T13:25:00.000-08:00

After all. I don’t see any reason why I should be holding myself back from moving on. I think this is the time for a wake up call. I gotta move on.

Dear my past life,

Thank you for everything. U make me the person I am now. I used to be an angry child. But I’ve learned from it. I think it’s enough for me to keep u inside me for any longer. I gotta let it go. Im not regretting anything but I must say I hate it all. I hate what you’ve done to me. But still…thank you. Bye bye past. Hello future.

No love,

nurliyanazulkifli

p/s : its general. if any of u ppl dont like it. feel free to close the browser n be gone. u r not welcome here. this is my blog anyway.

a stranger

2006-03-22T12:24:00.000-08:00

thank you. for such an encouraging comment. thank you stranger.

nurliyanazulkifli

.stranger in my life.

2006-03-20T06:36:00.000-08:00

Hey stranger. can we talk?
I wish…
That’s all I can do..
Wishing..
And keep wishing..
Wish for a stranger..
To comfort me..

I don’t know where I stand..
I don’t know who to trust..
I don’t know which one is the truth..
Which one is the lie..
I don’t know why I cry..
I don’t know why I am mad..
I don’t know where to go..
I don’t know where I belong..

Hey stranger. Can I cry on your shoulder?

nurliyanazulkifli

sick society

2006-03-18T21:22:00.000-08:00

I feel sick. Yeah . that’s the word . SICK . sick with myself . sick with people . sick with everything . Everything seems unreal. Fake. Im living in a world full of bullshitness. Posers. Liars .hypocrite. “oh I care bout u elle” . and at the same time “I hated elle so much . shes a bitch” . its totally a joke. I don’t give a shit bout that. I believe in karma. Dgn setiap perbuatan ada pembalasan. Mereka tidak tahu. They never see underneath dgn setiap apa yang saya kena deal. Tapi mereka kata saya lah punca . saya lah racun . saya lah rosak . saya lah jahat . saya lah salah. Mereka ada mata yg boleh melihat. Tetapi mata mereka buta kerana hanya boleh melihat pada kulit. Bukan pada hati. I’ve tried my best. To attend everyone. To entertain everyone. Tp saya bukan robot. Saya ada hati. Saya rasa. Saya manusia biasa. Saya tak mampu. Saya tak sempurna. people. u r free to hate me for who i am. silakan. i dont care less.

saya masih ada mereka.

yang sayang saya.

bergembiralah manusia2 fake.

kamu menang.

saya tak kesah.

buat pertama kali dlm hidup saya.

saya tidak memaafkan.

nurliyanazulkifli

result

2006-01-27T04:57:00.000-08:00

result.result.result.resuxx

occay . result mmg mcm babi . i was like terkejut-nak-mampos bcoz i have to resit for my freakin' english paper . mmg takleh nak get over mnde tu sampai sekarang . fuck the whole world .

lagi sakit hati bile ihsan dapat cgpa die 3.4 . mama bangga la kat ihsan tu . same goes as my sister . fine korg . sape anak n adek korg skrg nih ? beh . i tak marah . cuma . dengki . eheheh . nways . congrats sayang . kamu mmg pandai dan takleh nak dinafikan . wutever pon . saya bangga dgn kamu beh . tapi . kalo next sem i lg bagus dr u . u kne stripdance tgh highway . occay ? its a deal .

haih . elyn . syam . helmi . hariz . syimir . kdo dan sme2 la . korg mesti lagi bagus kan result . congrats .

i wanna kill u n kiss u

2006-01-26T07:10:00.000-08:00

i feel like crapping ryt now . gosh .

i dunno what the fuck am i feeling ryt now . one thing for sure . i hate this feeling .
such a burden to think about it every now n then . crap .
i just feel like . killing u .
n . kiss u .

hmmm... im kinda miss my homegal ain . hope u r doing fine livin' ur life at Dakar .

o'yea .. my so called 'bestfren' titah txt me few days ago . n she did mention bout tam too . n that was the 2nd she's telling me the same story . tam ? he went back to china . got some shit going on here . so wut ? wutever titah . wuts the point of telling me that ? seeking for attention ? cmon .. u r so punkd . even ili hates u now . n pls . dun search for me no mo' . i dun hate u but being a backstabber? it just aint work baby . sorry .

haih . saya rindu :
elyn . nue . syimir . kdo . nabilah . kem . aiman . lina .
kawan-kawan lelaki saya . (banyak sgt kot nak list down)
my homeboys n homegals .
daddy .
lost but not forgotten kucing ku comel , arnab ku jerry . seronok kalau ade pet
bapak ku .
seseorang . (u know who u r)

maafkan

2006-01-03T10:25:00.000-08:00

kasih,

maafkan aku,

tiada inginku,

melukaimu,

dan kini kau tinggalkan aku,

hanya dlm hatiku,

ku ungkap semua penyesalanku,

kini ku ingin di sisimu,

bilaku masih di hatimu,

simpan cintaku,

kembalilah untuk ku,

ku ingin selalu di sisimu,

maafkan lah aku,

.kasih.

january 2nd . 2006

2006-01-02T12:27:00.000-08:00

. happy anniversary .

my love for you is blind.

i could'nt make you see it.

that i love you more.

than you'll ever know.

yesterday u killed me with your words.

but today i love you even more.

its all dedicated to you.

ihsan harith harman.

bullshit

2005-12-21T19:23:00.000-08:00

million thanks to elyn . helmi . syam . boy . yap . yeen . nabilah . nue . kem
im gonna be occay . give me some space to think .
to think wut i did wrong to all of u guys .
dun worry aite . be back soon .

bitch

2005-12-21T02:21:00.000-08:00

Bitchy me?

When I stand up for my beliefs, and myself they call me a bitch.When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch.When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts, or do things my own way, they call me a bitch.By being a bitch means that I am free to be the wonderful creature that I am, with all my own intricacies, contradictions, quirks and beauty.It also means that I won't compromise what's in my heart.It means I live my life MY way.It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak up against it, I am defined as a bitch.The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.I am proud to be a bitch! It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.

satisfy?

being me

2005-12-19T12:44:00.000-08:00

for those who always stand up for me .
a million thanks .
for those who always againts me in almost everything .
im not perfect . see here . i dun care .
go n bitch around bout me . it wont makes u perfect either .

i am 100% nur liyana zulkifli .
yes . i do listen to advises n i do make certain of changes to improve myself .
n no i dont n i cant change 360 degree in a sec .
no one does .
be it . or get ur ass off my way .

thank you .

bosan

2005-12-19T11:49:00.000-08:00

315 pm n im still all awake writing sum stupid ass blog . had a fever n terrible headache .omg . im so tired . mentally n physically exhausted . been thinking aloadsssss . need a break . so here i am now . home . dun feel like going back to campus . at lease not in this short tym . really really really need a break . haih . saya bosan .

memang macam 'bab'

2005-11-30T06:11:00.000-08:00

hari ni aku terlampau2 bengang...hahaha..sekian terima kasih..syimir babi!hahah..wei..mlm nie kareema nak tumpang katil hang..

the celebration

2005-11-15T10:04:00.000-08:00

last nyt.was totally chaotic.
cari kete for like sejam.dapat keta lambat bout kul 1030.
quite lucky sbb dpt kete lain kul 9.gerak terus.org sewa kete tu cam sial.
dun feel like going.tot of staying @ d hostel coz i wana study for my supp ppr.
at last g jugak.sampai serdang kul 1015.naik jamm.lepak kat lua.turun nak makan tapi tak jadi.lepak ngan nabilah @ petronas.bosan.
lepak lam kete kat tempat jamm tu.beli milo ngan chuppa chups.bdk2 turun.gerak g tempat yg aku paling tak suka.makan but i didnt eat pon.tak lalu.bosan.
bawak kua kek.syimir ashlee simpson yg suro aku bawak kek.jahat nye jebat.
the celebration begins.aku jadi cameragirl.snap some photos.
pakcik mangkuk mne tah mara.gerak balik.went to ampang.anta digicam kat kaklong.
gerak balik cyber.tido.

nabilah,im sorry bout last nite.n thanks.

dare to be different

2005-11-14T17:30:00.000-08:00

hehhehe...best gler occay arinie..both me n syimir g alamanda to get our hairdo..g alamanda dlm kul 1 lebih camtuh ngan all the minachiz n syam...smpi je trus g jantzen salon..syimir nak potong rambut..mcm ashlee..siap bawak printout gambar ashlee occay..haha..as for me..eheh..perming..elyn,kdo,aiman,syam g jejalan..tinggal kitorg kat sana..damn..masa perming tuh ngantuk gler occay..mcm nak tdo but takut nanti ngigau cam syimir...hoohoo...syimir siap dulu...omg,sumpah macam ashlee!im sooo jealous...at first cam menyesal je perm..then its my turn lak..masa tu cam tak nmpak sgt my hair..so i dunno how it looks like...mampos la..at 1st menyesal gler..but for the second thought..hmmm...i kindda like my new hair...haha...at lease i dare to be different..both me n syimir..and the minachiz..luv y'all..n thanks for the compliment nabilah..eheh..cehh.

my very first blog

2005-11-14T12:30:00.000-08:00

syimir soh but blog..plus tgh serabut..so...here it goes..my very first blog..